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    March 05

    ABout show choir

    I watch them
    from behind the curtain
    encourageing them
    to do what they do best
     
    but one thing
    they'll never know
    is that
    I'd give anything to be them
     
    to be on stage
    and wear the outfits
    that show so much
    confidence
     
    and speaking of which
    i wish i still had
    mine
     
    it died one day
    he killed it for a reason
    i thought i could make it
    i thought i had talent
    and skill
     
    but
    no
    not me
    not the girl who trys
    who works for his approval
    maybe i should just give up
    and forget
    the connection
    and how i'd give anything to be them
    February 09

    I'm Sorry

    I'M SORRY
     BY: PARIS
     
    I'm sorry I have friends.
    I'm sorry they actually talk to me
    I'm sorry they try to comfort me.
    When you've hurt me.
    I'm sorry they want to hang out with me.
    I'm sorry they might actually like me.
     
    I think it's kind of sad.
    When I turn to the pounding of my headphones.
    Just to escape the reality of home.
    Music isn't just my release.
    It's my,
    life.
    It's my lifeline when I'm alone.
     
    I'm sorry music is my cure all.
    I'm sorry I want to be someone
    I'm sorry I'm not you.
    I'm sick of trying to be the little girl you wanted.
     
    In the begining I tried.
    I tried to be perfect.
    I failed.
     I'm sorry that when I cried
    you were the cause
    and the friends you badmouth
    were there telling me
    not to take that fall.
     
    I'm sorry I forget things.
    I'm sorry i want to go out.
    I'm sorry I have flaws
    I'm sorry I'm human.
     
    I'm sorry that Sorry isn't good enough for you.
    January 28

    Reason to live

    Some times
    things just seem too right
    when things are set in place
    No reason to fear
    No reason to cry
    Just a reason to live
     
    A reason to wake up to the sun
    A reason to smile
    Blazing fire strike
    Come on let's show them
     
    nothing's going to bring
    us
    down this time
     
    We will stand
    above the rest
    we will be more
    than what they see
     
    Come on let's show
    them we love
    the way they
    pull us down
     
    They make us work
    for what we need
    what we strive for
    Truth and Understanding
    Brought Us Together
     
    My only love sprung from my only hate
    Friends and school
    Music in the threads
    things change
    i have a reason to live
    January 20

    BAND NERDS

     OK so I auditioned for band at my school and I made it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I play sax. now here are your icons
     
    Saxophonesaxophone musicrock outband geekOr a drama geek. Tru me.Band Geekin love with a band geekband geek =]]After having to relearn 3 years of saxophone in a week I'd say that's true.
    January 05

    A New Teen Drama

     
    SCRIPTLESS
     
    Eyes on the TV screen
    How in the world did it take me this long
    to realize that
    the life that I've been living
    is the script that they've been reading
     
    Problem is the story that you see
    is a bit different than ours
    They're set in the mall
    In stores like Areo'
    See here we're just fine
    being set in the parking lot
     
    I wanna know what's comming next
    Someone give me the script so I can tell
    when the next Make up break up's gonna come
     
    Things don't stay quiet for long
    There's always drama in the darkness
    You think that it's only on the TV screen
     
    Truth is here we go watching things go wrong
    This is new
    The group in the back is here
    We take center stage
    Place them in the chourus
    It's our time
    Our story to tell
    But we are the truth for
    the words we recite
    are Scriptless

    We don't have
    a clue
    We improvise
    according to the situation
     
    You have to admit now
    it takes skill
    to act like everything's alright
    When truth is I want to run
    Just to be with my friends
     
    Where the story is
    Scriptless
    December 29

    La la lA LA

    LYRICS ON MY ARM
    AND I'M PASSED OUT ON THE FLOOR AGAIN
    WHAT'D I DO THIS TIME
    CAN'T REMEMBER LAST NIGHT
    TURN AROUND
    THERE AREN'T ANY EMTY BOTTLES IN THE SINK
     
     
    WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER LAST NIGHT
    MY HEAD IS POUNDING
    MY BONES ARE ACHING
    I'M ALONE ON MY BEDROOM FLOOR
     
    CALL A FRIEND
    THEY SAID THAT NOTHING HAPPENED
    THESE LYRICS CARVED INTO MY SKIN
    WHAT DOES IT MEAN
     
    YOU ARE MY LIFE AND I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU
    HOW DID I GO SO LONG WITH ANYONE BUT YOU
    SPRAWLED OUT ON THE FLOOR
    AND NOW I'M RECALLING EVERYTHING
    HE WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR
     
    NOW I CAN REMEMBER
    EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED
    I REMEMBER THAT
    I REALIZED
    I FELL
    IN LOVE
    WITH
    HIM
    December 11

    This is the way I feel

    Yeah I lost a few friends.....got a boyfriend. Turns out that my so called friends weren't the best for me. 
     
     
    Kiss meyeah so true if i only had a pair of converse. Ha yeah I'm short.hold me like you'll never let me goJohn Denver Lyrics!!! Woot Woot.Hold Me CloserawwwwwHold Me CloseI just love this picture. it reminds me of Bella and Edward Cullen (Come on you know they get maried in the end) LoveI love this picture and wonder if my pupils do that when I look at him. feels like it. everytime we touch *dances* I LOVE this song. it makes me want to jump around and scream *sigh* so true. A Little Less 16 candles, A Little More Touch Me This is an AWESOME SOng and true TrUe tRuE TRUE antidrug ha ha yeah i've gotten back to the tunes and off the drugs.music.. Reality my poisin and my freedom hold your head high gorgeous yeah half the school would LOVE to see that happen to me.
     
     
    I'm hated
    I'm loved
    It's for who I am
    This time
    I'm not a poser
    I'm just me
    and they can't
    stop me from feeling this way
    about him
    and vice versa
    so take that
    and remember it when I can't be stopped
     
     
    November 24

    When I Leave

    When I’m Gone

    When I leave you will see

    That what I said was true

    Even though

    You said

    You were screwin’ with my head

    When I said I loved you

    I really meant it

    I don’t want to forget

    The times we spent

    The memories

    Are written on my sleeves

    But my disappearance

    Will change you mind

    You don’t know how much you have

    Until you can’t look me in the eye

    So define hate

    And what’s it mean to you

    Make me cry

    I’m done with you this time

    So when I’m gone remember me

    And how I used to be

    Remember every smile

    Remember every laugh

    Remember every time I held your hand in mine

    Remember me when I leave

    You did this to yourself

    Do you miss me now?

    As you watch me off with someone else

    Let the pain sink in

    And welcome to my lifeI wrote this about a boy and it's about how he hates me and has hated me in the past but he's always come back. But this time I might just leave

     
    November 19

    They Still Hate Me But I'd Never Change A Thing

    Life sucks. I'm figuring that out now. So as some of you may know. Half my school hates me. My response...Oh well. I'm just gonna live. I still love them. Yeah I do...And I'm still gonna dance,fence,laugh, love,skate,breathe,learn,read,scream, and fly just like I used to.
     
     
     
    Gerard and his frodo baggins sword
    November 17

    This Love Has Taken It's Toll On Us

    Never ForgetThey did but they don't know itfacing your biggest fearsMusic | meganxxxi hate myself for losing you I kelly clarkson I xxloveandhatexx
    Lady and the Trampbut I love him (I love that song and it makes sense) truth #1Heart's Desire?don't ask if you already knowAddicted to Love (Life's Dead End Path) ll Six Reasons to Kill ll xKCxthis hurts
     
    I never changed [dominique]it's middle school...People changesecret #  23idk u tell me if i know the truthobstacles.Evanescence - Bring Me To LifeGerard Way- coffeeI just like this icon...it kinda looks like middle school.secret # 19secret #28And So it Goes (2)And So It GoesLove meKiara and Kovulion kingWhy can't i feel anything for anyone other than youSo Jealous of Her
    November 16

    My Current Issue...

    I don't want you to hate me
    I just want to make things right
    I really have to say
    Things aren't going right
     
    Everything has to end
    Everything has to stop
    And so it goes
     
    I'm the stupid one
    I'm the jerk
    I'm the one who put you on the rebound
    I'm the one who cheated
    I'm the one who lied
    I'm sorry for all that I've done
     
    I can't hurt you
    But I have to
    I have to say
    We can't be together
    Because you were the rebound
    independentHe knows im unfaithful.we were just friendsi think we're overunfaithful | RIHANNA
    November 13

    MIZORE ICONS

    Opening Credits:getting over you
    Periods 1 2 3: I laugh
    Periods 4 5 6: behind my makeup is a shy girl crying
    Periods 7 8 9: Dark Mark Lollipop
     After School:help
     
    After everything that's happend this is all I have to say Music is my boyfriendSinglesingle and not happyI'm gettin' over a break up and i think being single is going to be interesting
    November 09

    Say what you want No matter what

    They say that kids say the darndest things. Well I don't know what the word darndest means. So I'm going to go with kids say the weirdest things. And I know weird. So here's a list of random strange, bizzare, messed up thing we say. FYI we seriously say these.
     
    • He's a ninja leech~Alex
    • indefuckingstructable~Isaac
    • Shut up voices~ALL of us
    • We're going to drug you out and braid your hair, put you in a tux, take you to McDonalds and put a phone # in your hand.~Mereidth, Me, Austin (about Isaac) 
    • I don't need a hospital~Janak
    • OMG I can't feel my toes~Alex
    • Your face~Alex
    • Do you have a problem with that~ALL OF US 
    • If you die I get to die~ Our solem vows of Friendship
    • Pumpernickle~Me
    • Pudding~Sarah
    • I'm awesome! Agree or die~Austin
    • NINJA~Emmit said it first but we all say it
    • PIRATE~ Everyone
    • Yeah he's not worth it~Me,Sarah
    • I can't breathe~ Me
    • I can't feel my legs~All of us
    • Too late~Janak
    • I don't hate you~Me
    • I'm insane what'd you expect~Me
    • Love sucks~come on we've all said it 
    • I think I'll go anti-love that way I won't get hurt....damn I can't do this I luv them too much~All
    • That's it you're coming over to my house. so i can feed you soup so you can get better so you can yell at me again~Me to my ex worst enemy
    • OH MY GOD IT'S A COOKIE~ this is what we say when you bring cookies to homeroom
    • Blue Muffin Mongooseys~ Cole
    • John:yeah I sold my soul on ebay Me: That was yours!
    • John:I don't know they're talking about Edward ISAAC:From twilight. (John nods) ME: Oh My God He is awsome JOHN: I can't escape it
    • Paint the box passion red~John
    • Yeah Isaac I've just stamped her~John
    • Your dad looks like he's just murdered someone. With those shades and all just sitting there in the car like that~Isaac
    • I'M SORRY~EVERYONE yeah i hate this one soooooooooo much but it works.
    • ME: Holy SHIT she's going to kill me. ISAAC: No she won't. As long as I'm here she won't lay a hand on you
    • That was a fun hug~Isaac
    • Cracker book story time~Meredith
    • ME:I love school HER: why? (me & my bf kiss) ME: that's why
    • Okay let's kick the DJ's ass~ all of us (this was said when we had to get a teacher to request a rock song before he would play it)
    • ISAAC: supervision right behind me right ME: yep BOTH:damn supervision
    • It's like they're having sex with their eyes~Zach
    November 08

    ICONS

    Opening Credits:morning person // 0x0mandii0x0
     
    Periods 1 2 3: School is evil
    Periods 4 5 6: friendsLOVE.
    Periods 7 8 9: Laugh Last Think Slowest
    After school: lovelove u
    November 07

    My day in ICons

     
    Opening Credits/ waking up: Leave Me Alone//PanicAtTheCutieCabi dream of you
    Entering School: hiding behind a fake smile
    Periods 1 2 3: I Swore That I Could Survive Another StormSCREAMS TURN TO SILENCE [stfuFATTYCAKES]
     
    Periods 4 5 6: lovemeansJess & Rory > Together at Last > Gilmore Girls > gigglegirl91Together once again
    Periods 7 8 9: be happySimba & Nala- Friends Forever Avatar
    Ending Credits: Take-A-Risk-And-Love-Somonetrue love is when you dont want to go to sleep at nightIs he worth it?
     
     
     
    RISE FOREVER
    We look like we're on drugs
    We're not
    We act inane
    We aren't
    We laugh randomly
    when nothing is funny
    We keep secrets
    when everyone already knows
    We stand together
    So we don't have to stand alone
     
    Together we fell
    Together we will rise
    but only together
    will we defeat
    the people
    who ridicule us
    who laugh at us
    who look down upon us
    who underestimate us
    Only together
    friends forever
    will we
    rise
     
    ~Dedicated to all my friends.
    I LUV U GUYZ
     
    November 03

    Story Behind These Eyes

    They'd turn me in
    in a heartbeat
    Now they say that
    they're concerned
     
    But they never looked
    At what they were really doing
    They think they've won
    But I'm hiding Aces up my sleeve
     
    They never looked behind
    My eyes
    They never listened to me cry
    Myself to sleep
     
    They may have destroyed
    What ever I had left
    Of peace
    Of my vampiric gift
     
    He even said that he didn't read
    I guess I should've taken that
    A little more litterally
    Because I'm sure now
    He never read the story
    Behind these changing eyes.
     
    The story that was out there
    for them to read
    to finally understand
    why I need to be free
     
    And it's just behind the smile
    and it's just behind
    the eyeliner
    That the tears take way
     
    Looks like they never cared
    Looks like it's just what I feared
    A simple betrayal
    Left me behind
    And now they'll
    probobly turn me in
    For this
    But this is no sin.
     
    Not even close
    Not even a little
    but then again
    They think I'm
    Insane
     
    I'm a psycotic Princess
    But a princess in
    pain
    Psycotic or not
    Doesn't it still count
    When someone's hurting
    From a lost love
    A friendship love
    that's lost forever